The Beginning

6 weeks postpartum. 237 lbs.

If you fainted, then you might want to grab a pillow because, prior to delivering, I was at 253 lbs. Yes, two HUNDRED and FIFTY THREE pounds - the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life. 

At my postpartum visit, I was cleared by my doctor to resume normal activity and I was thrilled. My husband was just as excited, but we definitely had different things on the top of our “To Do” list. Lol. I, on the other hand, couldn’t wait to get to the gym. After nursing our newborn and helping with a few things around the house, I was dressed and ready to go:

Laces tied. Playlist set. Headphones on.

Game time.

I cranked up the treadmill and began a light jog. Barely 45 seconds in, I could feel every pound of weight on my body shift from side to side as I moved. Not even up to 5 minutes later and I, the former professional basketball player who was able to pretty much snap back after the first two kids had to stop and catch my breath. Smh. As I walked to the nearest bench to rest, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and was shocked at what I saw. Tears came to my eyes as I took a good look at all of me. 

My heart sighed.

I was ready to leave. 

Then, in the quiet, as I sat with my eyes closed, He spoke:

'This is just the beginning.

Don’t get stuck in the beginning."

Genesis 1:1-2(KJV):

1 In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

2 And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

God also had a beginning.

In that beginning, there was nothing but darkness and void. But God moved and began to create and the rest is history. Don’t get stuck in your beginning, no matter how shapeless, ugly, dark or empty it is. MOVE! That’s the only way things will change. Don’t stop! Keep going! You’ll be amazed at what you will create. Keep moving! Don’t. Give. Up.

THIS is just the beginning.